As I'd written about earlier, I decided to get a second opinion on potentially taking out my implants. One of my biggest regrets with all of my treatment was the fact that I did not get any second opinions. It wasn’t necessarily mandatory, as I decided early on that I trusted my care team, and needed to spend my energy getting through treatment and all other things. But was a very strange approach for me to take, as I’d done just the opposite for all of my family members’ illnesses—reading up on everything I possibly could. I have since come to realize that it was a necessary self-protection at that time. I don’t really regret any of the treatment that I got, and I don’t think that my care was harmful in any way. But given that I have had such issues with my implants since the beginning, I can say (with 20-20 hindsight) that I wish I’d have gotten a second opinion on plastic surgery. Most of all, I wish I had known that it was possible to reconstruct later and that I didn’t have to rush to work with a plastic surgeon from the start.
After seeking referrals from several others who had been through different types of breast reconstruction, I decided to see Dr. Kinney, although reviews were also mixed on him.
I am so glad that I chose him. He spoke to me as an educated person and he listened to what I wanted (or thought I wanted) and explained possibilities. Most of all, he repeated that whatever decision I made now did not have to be a permanent decision. If I decided to go flat, I could come back in a year or two or ten and he would be able to construct breasts from either my inner thighs (bonus!) or my butt. (Since Sterkin had already used my stomach for liposuction, that would be a bit iffier, but potentially also possible.) He explained the method of surgery that his office does for reconstruction which, unlike “older” methods, uses fat and the fat’s blood supply and does not touch any muscle. And that he will use implants if someone wants them, but that fat makes a softer, nicer breast, so he seldom uses implants. He acknowledged that Dr. Sterkin is an excellent implant surgeon, which I would agree with. Finally, he told me that he could take out the entire capsule (en bloc) surrounding the implant and wouldn’t have to leave some behind, like Dr. Sterkin said he would have to do. I told him that Dr. Sterkin was concerned about causing a pneumothorax, and while Kinney acknowledged that it was a possibility, he has a technique to minimize that happening, and even if it did happen, it simply meant that the lungs would have to be re-inflated and I’d have a chest tube until it healed. (Not something I’d enjoy, but if it means the full capsule comes out, it’s a worthwhile risk, I think.) He also said that he would remove the dead fat from my other surgery (to put in the implants) and send it to pathology to ensure that it is, truly, only dead fat. After two and a half years of wondering about that, I consider that a welcome bonus.
So my explant surgery without reconstruction is scheduled for 11:00 am on Tuesday, June 18. It will (hopefully) be an outpatient surgery. I will (hopefully) be out of work for only a week, and off my bike for two weeks (can ride a stationary bike, but not move my arms). And then I’ll have PT (with the amazing Dr. Leslie Waltke) and hopefully the pain and numbness and shoulder issues will be better. And my favorite “perk,” as told by one of the bike salespeople where I bought my new bike (more on that later) is that by going flat I’ll be more aerodynamic on the bike! If I feel the need to have “breasts” that are about as functional as the fake ones I currently carry, Cara has promised to knit me a pair of knitted knockers. (Actually she thinks I should build a collection, all lovingly hand knit by friends.)
One more thing about breast implants:
I had posted before about the increasing link between textured implants and breast implant associated lymphoma (BIAL). There have been hearings recently, in front of the FDA, asking for removing textured implants from the marketplace. Several other countries have already done so. Basically, the US FDA will not be removing textured implants, but will increase the reporting requirements of adverse effects and increase the notification and warning to women before they get implants. One other thing that came up in the FDA hearings is something called “breast implant illness,” a non-specific autoimmune disorder that has been used to describe such varied symptoms as fatigue, skin disorders, intestinal upset, and almost anything else that you can imagine. I must admit that I have brushed it off, as there are so many disorders without scientific basis that are somewhat a product of suggestion (culture-bound syndromes). And most of the symptoms that have been blamed on BII are symptoms that arise from most breast cancer treatments. But the FDA, while not going so far as to acknowledge that BII exists, did agree to include the possibility of immune dysfunction following use of implants, and added that to one of the things that women should be warned about prior to surgery with implants. And while I’m still not 100% convinced, there does seem to be some anecdotal evidence that women with an existing autoimmune disorder have more symptoms after getting implants. I do have an autoimmune disorder (ITP), and I wouldn’t complain if, by removing these implants, my body aches, fuzzy brain, immense fatigue, and any other symptoms disappear!
Since my last post, I have had another 6 month check with Dr. Shah (still NED!) and another round of Zometa infusion. Dr. Shah is pregnant again with another little girl. What a great measure of time moving along, as I was nearing the end of my active treatment when she was pregnant with her first. I had insurance issues with getting the infusion the same time as my Dr. Shah appointment, so I got two appointments instead of just one. It did give me a chance to try out being poked in my lymphedema arm, however. And the phlebotomist got me with her first poke and I didn’t bruise or anything.
Greg surprised me by showing up at my infusion, since it was at the end of the day. And when I got home, he’d bought flowers. Given how hard the infusion hit me the last two times, I decided to pre-medicate with Advil and Tylenol before and through this infusion. I took a total of seven rounds of 1 Advil + 1 Tylenol, and not only was it much less terrible of a process through the infusion, but that many NSAIDs had me pain-free for the first time in ages. I literally was skipping around! I certainly can’t take that many NSAIDs regularly (besides liver and kidney damage, it’s not good for me to take them with ITP), but if I have something big coming up (like, say, riding a Century…), they could be helpful. J
Which brings me to my other big news—which those of you who read my Facebook already know. Team Phoenix introduced me to biking, which I love. And I started 2019 with a goal of riding 2019 miles this year. I also want to ride a century (100 miles). Which is possible, but would be more difficult, on a hybrid. So all my biking friends have been telling me that I should get a road bike. While I was going to wait until next year's big birthday, I taught a class at UWM as an adjunct, which gave me some extra money that I wasn't expecting. And so I decided to look at bikes. And somehow, after months of comparing online and in stores, I ended up with an amazing, beautiful, fast road bike, who I call Roz. I feel quite spoiled, but she makes me very happy.
(Photo from Trek website) |
Surgery in one month from today. I can do this. :)