Today put me solidly over the halfway point for chemo (and nearing the halfway for the second round). My chemo companion was my sister-in-law (and former roommate and dear friend) Katie:
My counts were slightly improved:
Platelets: 92 thou/mcL
Abs # neut: 2.4 thou/mcL
WBC: 3.6 thou/mcL
Hemoglobin 9.9 gm/dL
Though I gained 2 more pounds in 2 weeks. Sigh.
I asked a lot of questions (remembered to write them down this time) and got a recommendation for the nosebleeds (saline nasal spray), permission to have an occasional alcoholic beverage (Hello, biergarten, bloody marys & cucumber vodka drinks!), and reassurance that my struggle to find words and multi-task are chemo-related and not brain mets (so I should be challenging my brain to keep it healthy). I also complained a bit about how I hated feeling so yucky after chemo due to the Benadryl, so Dr. Shah dropped my pre-med Benadryl dose from 25 mg to 10 mg. She also dropped the steroids from my pre-meds entirely. I still get the Pepcid (which I found out is another histamine blocker--I'd assumed it was an anti-nausea med), too.
So my request this week is for iPhone apps that you would recommend to keep my brain active. I've been playing Candy Crush simply for the fact that it's mind-numbing, but Dr. Shah said that, in addition to continuing to work, I should be doing things that really make me work my brain and draw connections.
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Some quick fun stuff I did this last week:
Cara has been home for a week now. It's been so nice to just have her around and she's been so helpful with everything around the house, including:
cooking
Since Cara will be living in an apartment next year, she's learning a lot of cooking, including helping me (my own sous chef) and cooking on her own. One of the fun things we made was homemade pierogi.
gardening
I've always been afraid to plant before Memorial Day weekend, so Saturday we planted a lot of things: tomatoes, a tomatillo, peppers, herbs, sugar snap peas, radishes, beets, and horseradish!
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knitting
I finished Hitchhiker--which ended up with only 40 notches, so I'm not sure it can still be called "Hitchhiker"
I also finally decided what to make with my beautiful Noro gift. I'm making a knit tee. It's knit entirely in the round (bottom up) so I think the Noro will blend and stripe nicely.
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Finally, we had a great time on Sunday with our friends Joe and Kristi. We went out for Mexican food at La Fuente and then saw The Book of Mormon. The whole night was so much fun, but the musical was even better than I expected! I highly recommend it--even though I can't stop singing the completely inappropriate songs from it.
It seems strange to keep writing about "nothing" (at least nothing new), but I guess this is my new normal. I'm still kinda sleepy (and dopey), so not much writing, but I have a lot of pictures to share.
My chemo regimen is/was 4 AC's every 2 weeks and 12 TH's every week. So whether you are counting number of infusions or weeks, I'm over half done either way. Woo hoo!
This was the week I didn't have to see Dr. Shah--only the nurse. Unfortunately, my blood counts all dropped and they wanted to check/count them manually, so the time I saved by not seeing Dr. Shah was eaten up by waiting for lab counts! Numbers were:
Platelets: 88 thou/mcL Abs # neut: 1.9 thou/mcLWBC: 3.1 thou/mcLHemoglobin 9.8 gm/dL
My chemo buddy was Laura, who actually took a day off of work to chauffeur me around. We had a great time catching up over lunch and while waiting for my lab results. :)
She was an especially good sport since the Benadryl hit me pretty quickly and I actually fell asleep this time. :(
I seem to be developing a pattern whereby the Benadryl knocks me out during and shortly after chemo. I get home, manage to eat a little supper, then crash (nap) for a few hours. When I wake up, the Benadryl seems to have worn off and the steroids kick in. The last couple Thursdays, I've felt awesome all day. Here's hoping that holds for tomorrow as well!
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Last Friday I wore the wig in public for the first time--to a graduation party held at Zilber for the Fall and Spring grads.
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My friend Bailey got me the coolest print at a local art fair. The print, and others like it, are on the website ArteryInk.com.
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Mira did "Run the Bay"--a 5K fundraiser for our public school district. I'd hoped to run it with her, but I have been very short of breath and tired lately--my attempts at running have not been good. She did amazing (24:30) for not really running much since last fall.
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Travis won an award from the high school tonight--Outstanding Junior Math Student! He also got a pin for another year on the varsity Math Team.
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And Cara is on her way across the state now, to be home for the summer. Greg is a champ, as he left home at 6:30 this morning, drove to the Twin Cities, moved stuff for Cara, then packed the CRV to the top to move her home. I expect they'll be here sometime shortly before midnight.
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I haven't posted knitting pics for awhile. I've been too tired to knit much more than in the waiting room. I haven't made it to Night Knitting for a few weeks, but now that my job at Mt. Mary is done for the year, I have Tuesday mornings free to knit with that group.
Here's hitchhiker with 38 of 42 teeth:
And Travis' socks are almost done:
I'm ready to finish both of those projects and move onto something new.
I've also pulled out the sewing machine and am trying to find a decent pattern for a lightweight chemo hat/scarf/turban thing. I've pinned a few patterns and may try to play around with them.
And I'm caught up on Grey's Anatomy (through this season's finale) and we're on Season 3, episode 19 ("The Price") in Angel. It's going a bit slower, as my eyes get too tired and blurry to watch more than one episode a day.
Today was the third of the TH infusions. Kathlynn was my chemo buddy again and we had a yummy lunch (ok, we both ordered breakfast) at Simple Cafe before chemo. That was good so we had a chance to visit, since I just do not do well with Benadryl and so as soon as the meds kick in, I'm pretty spacey and out of it.
Counts were good. :) So good, in fact, that I don't have to see Dr. Shah next week (unless something strange happens)--just the nurses. I follow-up with Dr. Shah in two weeks.
Platelets: 115 thou/mcL (WOOT!)
Abs # neut: 3.3 thou/mcL
WBC: 4.4 thou/mcL
Hemoglobin 10.0 gm/dL
I still have the same weepy eyes, drippy nose, sore throat stuff. I'm hoping to get to Costco to pick up generic Allegra to try. Fingers crossed! I know that environmental/seasonal allergies have been really bad for a lot of people, so it could just be that, or it could be that exacerbated by the chemo.
New, fun side effect: chemo brain
I'd been warned about this one, but I thought I was doing pretty well. My desk is littered with post-it notes, but what seems to be the worse is when I'm interrupted while doing one task to do another. I completely forgot to send an email last week that I could have sworn I sent. Turns out I didn't even WRITE it (other than in my head). I'm also having trouble searching for exactly the words that I need. This is perhaps the scariest of the side-effects for me. I'm working on compensating (post-its and lists and emails to myself!) and being much more aware of the fact that I can't trust myself to remember anything.
And the exhaustion continues to build. I think the chemo timing is pretty good, as I get it on Wednesday, am good on Thursday (thank you, steroids!) and Friday, then very tired over the weekend, but by Monday am good during the day and just tired at night. Still, the every-week chemo seems to be kicking my butt a bit worse than the "nasty" stuff I had every two weeks. Exhaustion can lead to depression, and I was feeling a bit sorry for myself this past week. It has been rainy and cold in Milwaukee and that doesn't help, either. Amazing how a beautiful, sunny day like today helped. Spring flowers are blooming all over the place--even my lilac is almost there:
I'm just happy to be on my temporary steroid-induced power boost. I'll take it while it lasts!
I was a bit worried about how today's infusions would go, given what happened last time. I've also had nose bleeds all the last week, so I was afraid my platelets might be low, though I haven't had bruises or petechiae or any other signs of low platelets. But my labs were good!
Platelets: 118 thou/mcL (WOOT!)
Abs # neut: 4.0 thou/mcL
WBC: 5.1 thou/mcL
Hemoglobin 9.9
My friend Wendy was my chemo companion today. Wendy and I met through email and La Leche League MANY years ago and we've stayed in casual contact online, but I think the last time we spent any length of time together was the impetus for this article (unfortunately, they've stripped the photos from it). We had a nice lunch at Whole Foods and lots of time to catch up over knitting.
And the infusions went fine. They loaded me up with steroids and benadryl again, and I was sleepy (and probably loopy), but no cough or chills. Hooray!
Yesterday I had my final "embiggening" appointment at the plastic surgeon. My expanders are maxed out on both sides, and will stay in place through the remainder of chemo and through radiation. Radiation will likely cause all sorts of issues with my right side, including encapsulation (warning, link is NSFW--don't click unless you want to see an image of an encapsulated breast). The doctor said they can clean out the area if it becomes encapsulated, and inject fat to attempt to make it look more normal, but radiation messes up the skin and tissues so much that it won't be a perfect match. Other than that, he was very pleased with how the expanders are working and he said I was "very even." Of course, he then said, "you've gained weight, haven't you?" Then he said I won't see him again until I'm done with radiation, so about 5-6 months. He told me that would give me time to lose some weight. I would be offended, except that he's right. Between the time I found the lump and got the diagnosis of breast cancer, I lost 12 pounds. I kept it off through surgery and recovery. Since that time, I have gained those 12 back, plus 10 more. Twenty-two pounds. I've gone from running 3x a week, to running about once every 3 weeks. I'm now heavier than I've ever been other than when pregnant. I've moved into the "overweight" BMI category. And I'm eating, and craving lots of carbs. Hoping this summer will allow me to exercise more and to eat healthier. Cara has told me she'll help, as she will be home this summer.
After finishing radiation, my body needs to rest and heal for 6 months to see exactly what effect the radiation had before my permanent implants are put in. So that means I have these goofy breasts for a year, anyway. None of my pre-surgical bras fit, so I decided that instead of the ugly Target bras I'd been wearing, I'd treat myself to a couple pretty ones at Victoria's Secret (Yeah, I know--retail therapy. But it worked ;)).
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A couple other little things:
There's a line of "empathy cards" that has been making the rounds of Facebook and I found them amusing. Some are really spot-on, but others just don't apply to me. My friends have been amazing and really said the right things (unlike my plastic surgeon... ;)). I *do* think everything happens for a reason. I smile every time I hear or read "fuck cancer." But I do love the lemonade one.
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While it has been wonderful to have Selenia living with Mom and helping out, it has become apparent that Mom needs to have someone with her around the clock, and that Selenia cannot do that (she has a job and family in the area). So we are about to start the look for a full-time live-in aide for Mom. The social worker sent us a list of agencies, but if any of you have recommendations, we'd gladly take them!
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As I mentioned above, Cara will be home this summer. The lab she did research in last summer is closed as the professor is on sabbatical. She was hoping to get in to do research at the Medical College, but did not get that position. I am selfishly kinda happy that she'll be here, and we're working on some lab-related opportunities (likely unpaid) for her here.
Travis is in the middle of AP exams, having taken Chemistry and BC Calculus already. Tomorrow is Computer Science, and then he has English (language) next week. Poor guy, with his birthday sandwiched in the middle.
And Mira's keeping busy with soccer, Girls Who Code, Green Team, and the Middle School Musical (Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat), which is this weekend. She had to get her purple/pink hair cut off for the performance. :(
Greg's busy wrapping up the semester (and school year) and I'm still job searching, while hoping I might be able to squeeze out some more time at my current job, though my contract ends June 30th. I have faith that something will work out.
